#25

How I'm feeling about maths right now.

Oh god. These exams have started to creep up on me. I have my first exams on the 18th - BOTH MY GOOD OL' PAL MATHS. no srsly, I am shitting myself for mechanics because I don't get it. It's just a mess at the moment. Lecturer is no use. I don't even know who to ask to help, everyone is stressing about their owjn stuff, it's not fair for me to dump another load on them... SCREW YOU PHYSICS.
But I'm so so glad that I have another month till my other two WHICH AREN'T MECHANICS FFFF YEAH. Still difficult nonetheless.

#21

some biscuits I bought today

Just sent off the ebay crap I sold. Made £65 (inc. postage cost which was £2.50 each. far too low as I used 1st class recorded, should've put it at £3) but spent a bit of it as I just went and used it on these two babies:

Left: BTSSB headband (http://www.babyssb.co.jp/shopping/baby/head/135913.html). Right:  嵐 tote (yeah ANOTHER tote, but this one is spacious :<)

Headband is something I've been looking for since I've got so much black dresses and not enough accessories. Was so scared that it would turn out to be a bidding war but won it at 3400yen. Only one other person bidded on it and gave up after two bids.

Exams timetable came today and omg, I am screwed. I knew my first exams is on the 18th, but fuck, sociology resit is on the 20th. And guess what, SOMEONE HASN'T DONE ANY REVISION YET~!
MEGA SC-REWED.
So I am glad that Easter is next week otherwise I would have no idea how to cram any revision in.

Stuff has happened since last update:

• mother's day (went to restuarant the day after since I was working. Chopstick training failed me as jsut about every food item we ordered was slippery with oil :\)
• had my first alone-to-the-cinema trip and went to see Confessions . Good film, would recommend to see it in your local independent cinema or buy a copy of it (has English subs, obvs)
• Finished Norwegian Wood (first book in years) and went to see the film (it was crap, don't go and see it. even if it does have Kenichi Matsuyama in it...)
• Had the whole of last weekend free so went round bezzy-mate's house for a sleepover. Was supposed to be a film night but ended up only watching District 9 and two episodes of Misfits (finished both series last night, including the special.

Today I wasn't in college due to only having one lesson and that particular lecturer was striking so yeaaaah.
Went to Nudo with family and actually managed to down the whole bowl and have a bit of room for dessert (didn't have anything today so probs why). Green tea ice-cream is lush. Flavour isn't too strong (therefore not bitter) and the balance of creaminess is soooo good. Unfortunately, the red bean and taro were sold out so didn't get to try it :<
Afterwards, I went and bought sweets (probs gonna die from diabetes in the near future...) including the panda biscuits above. Have yet to open them, but not expecting much as I know they're using the cuteness to sell the product rather than the actual taste and substance of it.
THE GUY ON THE TILL WAS AMAZINGLY PRETTY. I know I don't usually delve on this topic mainly because it's not often I encounter these situations. Apparently he's half-Japanese according to my sister who knows of him. And no, I'm not going to stalk or try anything because I'm not that kind of person :)  /random

EDIT: Sorry, forgot about the photo meme you set me Grace. I don't have many pics of myself as I hate(hated :
Just snagged these from fb just for comparasion.

Don't know how old I am in this, but top: about to stomp on my bro's head. bottom: posing with my uncle

Last Summer in Leazes for loli picnic (second one from the left)

Blurry, but such an awesome photo. December '10 @ York loli meet

A few weeks ago at college when it was sunny. And I'm NOT picking my nose here.

I did have a photo of me a few years back near my bed but dunno where that went...
And the other one:

1) Why you started blogging? To keep my sanity and sleep better at night. I have too many thoughts that prevent me from sleeping most nights. I also have a raging (feminist) bitch inside me but most of the times, it calms down when I post

2) What is the maddest thing you've ever done? Never been a pushing-every-boundaries type of person so I don't have anything worthwhile on here. But I guess I'll be going to Paris with frilly-friends this summer?

3) What is the maddest thing you want to do in this world? Embark on a solo-around-Asia trip. (May try Europe if I brush up on my language skills)

4) What would you do to get the world mad? Getting rid of the world economy

5) What is the maddest thing in you closet? Probs Milky Berry JSK :

#20

Just a quick one for today.

• Mutant potato no longer exists and didn;t take a photo in time. Mother made dinner with it... But its size is relative to a volvic 1L water bottle (no joke).
• Paid for me resits today ;___; Really only have about £15 left to my name.
• Thus I'm now selling shit on ebay. A ton of old clothes that I don't need.
• Just had a scone, but no cream in the house so it was crap.
• hating the Student Finance form with a passion, good thing I've already finished my part of the form, just waiting for parents to do their bit.
• Lost my last 嵐 bracelet somewhere in MY ROOM. The person who sells them don't do the same style anymore and the new edition looks a bit meh.
• Chopsticks training is going good but my hand is so bloody weak. Can't even hold them for 10 minutes ;___;

And here's a gif my sis sent me the other day:

CUTENESS OVERLOAD.

Will do a proper update when I cba and finish this ebay malarkey.

#17

Apple turnover in a sense...'cept not triangle-shaped and it has pecans :D.
Such an attractive photo.

Finished my production pieces now for media (after like a good 15 hours, not consecutively, but spread across last night and today x__x). Now for my evaluation (which is all due on Monday...) I cheated my way through two of them since I didn't have a "imaginative" tagline so screw you mark scheme.
I haaate evaluating my stuff. I am so critical of myself and I am cringing at the thought of analysing my own ads D:<  I also feel somewhat embarassed as my work is gonna be moderated by my lecturer and he always feedback the same thing with me so not looking forward to that...

Haven't gotten very far on my sociology essays since I've been concentrating on media. But I'm sure my sociology lecturer will understand since I always hand work in, 'cept for this module!

Thinking to plan a mini-meet during half-term to the American diner I always point out when walking down to Central. If not, NUDO TRIP :D.


And now to chomp down that delish apple goodness.

#15

how I felt last night....

I WAS ON A ROLL LAST NIGHT. Finished my media essay, listed all references in my bibliography and everything and guess what? THE FRICKING MEMORY STICK DIED ON ME. What's worse is that I thought I had saved a completed copy on my hard drive - nope. FFFUUUUU
At least though, I have half of my draft printed out with lecturer's notes as to what needed to be changed and the analysis of the second ad is all in my notebook so it's sorted... It's just I spent all that time finishing it and then bloody technology decided to take the piss.

Anyway, tomorrow is handing in day for resit forms and I am doing three resits which will total my summer exams to SEVEN, WOOT. a resit costs me £22 y'know ;___; That's £66 (more than half of my basic contracted hours pay) coming off my paycheck this month ;___;
SUMMER IS GONNA BE SO MUCH FUN, GAIZ.

Random note. I was at the post office today to send a returns package and whilst queueing I saw the exchange rate for the Euro - 1.1119... BLOODY HELL IS WAS ONLY 1.15 NOT LONG AGO...
/sigh

#14

The glorious stuff I woke up to today... Left to right: Quorn sausage bun, char siu and apple bun

Man, yesterday was tiring...
I was at work yesterday till 4pm and then met up with frilly friends to talk about Paris. not much got discussed since nothing was actually researched until last night, where a shit storm came along...
Basically, there are two groups who want different things. One (the one I'm in, but tbh I don't care), is going for 5 days (since the convention we're going to is only two days) and staying over in a hotel.
Second group, probably staying about three days and staying in a hostel.
I have no qualms about staying in a hostel as long as its reputation is good, but some people in the group are just not having it... /sigh
And now, there's a rift between the group ;___;
Have the money, just not sure how pissed off organiser will be since I have to pay it all in installments :<

anyway, still haven't finished media coursework, got photos done but perfume name+bottle and last bit of essay has yet to be done AND IT'S DUE FOR NEXT MONDAY FFFFUUUU.
 On top of that, about five essays to do for sociology =___= and catch up with maths. fml

Ah but, the end is near ;____;

#12

such pretty packaging ;___;

Lots of things have happened within the past few days... Let's start with the crappy stuff, eh?

I got rejected from Edinburgh two nights ago and ended up crying myself to sleep.
Somewhat glad I have Newcastle as a back otherrewise I only have UCLan and Oxford Brookes and I   REALLY don't want to go to OB from what other's have said...
But I'm definitely moving out, even if I'm living by myself (yusshhh). I asked some friends today if they wanted to move in and they said no .___. w/e
Well at least I definitely have a job and know the area well if I stay...
If I knew this was going to happen, I should'vw applied with partners since entry grades will be lower and I'll most likely get in.
 And here lies the second problem...

I got my results from January today and it's unlikely I'll get in...
I need an ABB. From the looks of things, it's more of a BBC/D.
I got a C in my sociology which I found out last night and was pretty pissed off and depressed about it. I tried so hard in that exam and I know for a fact some dick in the year who never turns up has a better grade than me... FML
My overall maths AS grade has gone up, so proud ;__; 'cept the fact that I failed my C3 module (so has most of my friends lawl) and so there it proves I have no hope of passing this A2 year...
Also failed general studies, LAWL /highfivemyself

good stuff...
Well the two pics above is my new shiny laptop bag from Cath Kidston (was on sale otherwise I would've never bought her stuff, cheapskate) It JUST fits my laptop. I can now bring it to college to use for work :D woot.
I bought a portable external hard drive as well (need to transfer stuff from comp to laptop, vice versa) so it means I have so much space now ;___; MORE SPACE FOR RAINBOW SPARKLY GHEY GAIZ.

My character on Kal also work again, haven't levelled much but omg...so happy. though I do need to get moving with my media coursework since the due date is on the 21st March... >___>

Group photoset I got the other day :D

#8

My awesome-ist teddy

'tis been a while x2

Will be getting my laptop within the next week (soooo excited), nothing amazing since I'm not planning to do anything intense like gaming on it soooo all is good to me. tbh, as long as it's faster than my computer, then I'm happy.
So will be updating this more frequently.
Probably gonna leave my LJ to die now since I don't go on LJ at all anymore (not even to check arama :<) and I've banned myself for a good month now from the comm_sales so realised I can actually save up if I try! Though I just made a wtb post, ahaa.

Need to start saving since this Summer = PARIIII with people (hopefully). Already planning what to take with me: Magical Etoile skirt, maybe Milky Berry JSK (depending how hot it'll be since it's black. y u so cruel ;___;)...

Results for January exams will be out in a few weeks, CANNOT WAIT MAN. I'm definitely resitting two exams, so that's £44 out the window :\
Also worried about my sociology exam now that I think about it...

Went for my annual blood test yesterday and got told by the doctor that I'm an overweight azn.
I was a bit offended when I heard that but looking back at it now, I'm just lol-ing about it tbh. I've lost 2kg since the Summer. Measured myself the other and I've lost 1.5inches off my bust measurement and an inch off my waist sooo yeah (didn't realise until I was wearing a blouse, that's made to my previous exact measurements, was a bit loose)

UCAS update~

Newcastle - ABB
Oxford Brookes - BBB
UCLan - 200 points
Sheffield - REJECTED LOL
Edinburgh - No reply yet.

#5

I luuuuurve this shoot!

So college has started again and I'm glad it has. I was bored not long after I finished my exams and the only thing that kept me going was probably work. 

Erm, I'm getting my sociology paper remarked which is good because I was horrified with my module 2 grade. I expected a C or low B but no. At least the lecturers noticed this :D. I'm just scared that it'll end up being the same grade that I got or lower because I don't want to disappoint them and the fact I need an awesome reference for uni, but apparently, the general grades were incredibly low this year so it may be due to harsh marking. I hope that I won't have to resit the paper again though. I already am planning to do two resits on top of three exams during the winter and the second module is pretty intense. Plus, the resits are so bloody expensive; it's ridiculous. Most, if not all, of my pay will be going towards resits when I have to buy a mega present for mother since it's her 50th this year.

Also, when I went into class on Monday and saw him, I'm sure to say that I no longer have any feelings towards him - finally. So this year things should run a lot smoothly without any awkward-ness between us. I kinda squee-d when I saw his name on the class list since I know someone, but at the same time I was worried about this whole thing. 

To be honest, I'm worried how I'm gonna even pass this year... Specifically my maths since I have the worst and only lecturer for A2. Baaah. 

#4

Got results yesterday and bloody hell, I did fucking awful even though I felt so confident about them .

Anyways, I got over it earlier today when I went to enroll for A2 so all is good. However, I saw him. I should had never walked that way because he's always there, would've thought he would be away or something still...

And he told me to find him afterwards; second time he's done that. But have legged it every time, oh gawd. Gah, jeez, why now? I thought I got over this earlier this Summer, but apparently not. WHY ME? 

Got to pick the timetable this time which is awesome, hope I have the same teachers because they are awesome as well. PLEASE LET ME BE IN THE SAME-ISH CLASS :(

I've completely forgot to pre-order some 嵐 tour goods and most of them have already closed but gonna see if any of them will accept a late order since I don't get paid until next week.  Gonna get a group poster, 相葉 poster and photoset, but I want to buy some stuff I've been eyeing for the past year and it'll allow me to wear more loli stuff for sixth form.  bahhh, was hoping I could save up some money for uni/presents for people :(

DAMMIT EXPENSIVE FASHION.